At the risk of sounding like a nut case, I am going to share this with you because it helps me. Although you can think that the entire affair is a matter of my imagination, I do believe that something is given and that something is received. And that, in and of itself, is positive.
At some point in the last year I got the idea to do this. I was listening to a Nina Simone Cd when a song came on that I had never heard before. The lyrics were particularly touching and I wanted to reach out and touch Dan. Dan was a big mountain of a guy and I’m pretty small, so giving him a hug entailed me reaching up and him reaching down. I imagined just that and at the same time I reached up and imagined myself looking into his beautiful face and resting my head on his shoulder and then I had the thought that I would ask him to dance with me.
I went back on the cd to that same song and as I listened to the melody and the words, I danced a slow dance with Dan. At points the image of him was so clear and the sense of his presence so powerful that I never get through the entire song without crying…and yet it is a positive experience everytime, for I feel that our spirits do connect and I am less lonely for him as a result. I’ve gotten to know the lyrics, which I will often sing while dancing, so I know he is getting the message and that is comforting as well. I may not be able to see him physically, but I can send out love and I believe he gets that very clearly. Each time I repeat the message in the song, it comforts me to say this to him:
NEVER TIRE OF LOVING YOU
Darling, you’re always needed
And your tenderness is needed too
And it seems that I’ll never tire of loving you.
Never was the feeling stronger
Aching for those sweet things you do
And it seems that I’ll never tire of loving you
Should the mountains crumble to ashes
And the rain should cease to fall
And if the river stopped its rolling
You’d still be, my love
And if the clouds cover the sky
So that the sun won’t come through
Then I will never never never never never never tire of loving you
I recommend trying to connect up through all kinds of means and not worrying about how it looks or sounds to anyone else. If it helps you to draw close to your loved one, it matters not how you bring it about. This little dance routine gives me a lot of solace and comfort. Please feel free to write in and share whatever it is that you do that you find helpful.
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