On December 11, 2010 I took part in an all day conference that was held in Warwick Rhode Island. It was organized and hosted by the profoundly gifted medium Roland Comtois. I have enormous respect for Roland, so when he invited me to take part in his conference, I was honored. The one-day event, referred to as “The After Death Campaign” had approximately 60 volunteer contributors. I had my own table where I was able to represent The Prayer Registry and sign up children for prayer. I spent most of the day at my table, talking about the registry and passing out my new Prayer Registry cards. I left my table, however, for the two events in which Roland would be channeling messages.
The first session met in the morning between 11:00 AM and 12:00 noon. There were approximately 300 people present, and of course everyone wanted a message! As I always say, the name of the game in large group sessions is…which spirit shouts the loudest, and I knew that there were people present who needed a message far more than I did. Aside from the fact that I go to more mediums than anyone I know and that I had recently been in a smaller group session with Roland and received quite a long message from Dan, there were people present who were suffering greatly from very recent losses and had not yet been connected up at all. One father who had recently lost his son was so broken up, all I could was pray that his son would come through, and he did!
Ordinarily I am pretty greedy in these situations, but I steered myself towards being gracious and generous, telling myself to be happy for those who received messages and for the opportunity to witness the communications taking place. I’ll admit, I was a little antsy at times, but for the most part I was a “lady” about it and felt genuine joy for those who were connected up.
Later that day Roland held one final session between 4 and 5 PM. The group was much smaller, with approximately 30 people present. Again I told myself to keep it together and to be happy for others and I managed to do so, for the first 30 minutes and then all hell broke loose!
I’m won’t try to hide the fact that deep inside myself, a woman of 60 years, there is also a little girl who can raise quite a ruckus. Of course the woman of 60 years wasn’t about to throw a hissy fit in the room but the little girl had no problem throwing a hissy fit inside my head! As if little Sheri was just standing there stamping her metaphysical foot, these are the thoughts that were running through my head:
“God damn it Danny, where the hell are you? Do you mean to tell me that I’m not even going to get one word out of you? That isn’t fair. I’m happy to be here for others but what about me????? You know, I came a long distance to be here too. Listen Danny, I really think you should be coming through.”
I went on and on like that, non-stop. I was relentless and I was emotional. Then, all of a sudden Roland looked me in the eye and said:
Roland: Your boy is here, Sheri.
Roland: Your boy is here, Sheri. He says, “What do you think?” He says, “I’m just here, present, to be with you. That’s it. Let’s not
make it a big deal anymore," he says.
Sheri: That will be the day.
Roland: He did say you get a little dramatic though, in your noisy mind! He says just be present for him.
That was it and that was enough. Dan had put me in my place! The session ended shortly and when I returned to my hotel room I had a good laugh! My behavior had been so childish and truth be told, I was able to hide it from everyone in the room with the exception of Danny who could see everything! I wondered, who else in spirit was watching me throw a hissy fit and if this meant I would have to finally grow up?
The best part for me, however, was the reassurance that not only is Danny around, but he is acutely aware of everything going on that concerns him and me. I know that a distance currently separates us that might best be described as differences in vibrational frequencies. I can’t see Dan and I can’t see hear Dan’s voice in the room, however, since he passed I have heard thoughts in my head that I feel are coming from him and if I’ve heard this once, I’ve heard it a hundred times, “Mom, you are so dramatic.” So, time goes on and so does the relationship between Dan and me and that is the important thing that I want to stress.
I don’t think the day will ever come when I have no need for reassurance, but I do hope that in time my trust will deepen. Maybe one day I can “just be present” for Danny as he requested without demanding endless proof that he is himself and that he still with us. But I am getting to believe it more and more and so I am passing that knowledge on to you that you may know it too.
Our children are as close as our breath and our relationships continue through all time. Send them your love. They can feel it. Breathe in their love. It is all around you. Danny says so!
Bereavement Blog >